Video 09 → Ken, On Dreams

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[Ken's set the Dreamberry up against a book; he's slumped opposite it, chin resting on one wrist. The picture is slightly crooked, and he reaches out to steady the screen.

[Then he glares at it, as if it personally has done him some grave disservice.]

So, these dream... post things. What right have we got to be seeing this stuff?

[I'm looking at you, Dreamberry. Ken glares a bit more, then sighs.]

This ain't TV, right? It's... someone else's head in here. It's private and this thing's dishing it up like it was a stupid drama or something and it's - you're all, why not watch it if it's there? Like TV. And everyone does it and it starts seeming so normal and... and what the Hell's with that, why's that supposed to be okay now just because it's everywhere and--

Look, I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else, I do it too and I don't know why I ever figured it was just fine to, it's not a show and... and... Damn, I hate this place!

[And off.]

Comments

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

No. It isn't.

[And that's all she wrote. If there were subtleties there Ken missed them: he's too busy dealing with his own feelings of guilt to really notice what Omi's deal is. If he's uncomfortable, it just seems right. It's an uncomfortable thing to be.]

I didn't watch Hatori's. You know, that doctor... and he was glad. And if not doing it makes people happy... Well, It's not like I like it when everyone sees mine, is it? What the Hell right have I got to not like other people doing something when I'm doing it right back?

[1blackcat.livejournal.com]

[For the general population, it's different. Ken is a friend. Ken he trusts. And for him to make a public announcement about this, it must be something he feels strongly about. So.]

I'm sorry, Ken-kun. If you have any more dreams... I won't watch them.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Don't apologize, I'm not - it ain't your fault! I...

[Ken sighs. Oddly, this isn't what he wants to hear either. Go figure that.]

Omi, I ain't gonna be able to stop people watching stuff if it goes out there. I mean even if I filter it like crazy it's not gonna stop it. So if it's gonna happen anyway I'd rather you saw it than most everyone else and I mean that about the others too, and...

[... and I don't have a clue what I'm saying. OH WELL. Carrying on:]

You don't have to. But I do.

[1blackcat.livejournal.com]

But, my watching it doesn't mean someone else won't. Isn't that right? This... isn't a substitution game.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I know that.

But if other people are gonna be watching anyway I don't see any harm in you doing.

[1blackcat.livejournal.com]

[But Omi does.]

Ken-kun... do people have a right to watch it simply because it's there... or don't they?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's nice, but if anyone's gonna see it then you--

[He isn't articulating this well. He knows what he means, but...

[Ken sighs. Rubs one eye with the heel of his hand, then drags it back through his bangs. Honestly, he's starting to wish he never brought it up. He doesn't like Omi seeing what he's dreaming about, but he at least knows he can count on Omi not to be a total jerk about it after the fact unlike half the other people who won't think twice about sitting down to perv on his dreams, and...]

I don't know. All I know is I don't.

[1blackcat.livejournal.com]

[Omi thinks for a moment and puts on the just-going-to-make-my-point-this-way-instead smile.]

Well, if you don't, that means you won't be watching my dreams either, right? So it's only fair I not watch yours in exchange.

[You're not changing his mind, Ken.]

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[No, doesn't look like he is.]

Guess you're right, Omi... but if I have one that sucks and... and, say, Schuldig calls just to be an asshole 'cause he's so good at it, can I call you afterward?

[1blackcat.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Always.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Well, that's okay then.