Video 09 → Ken, On Dreams

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[Ken's set the Dreamberry up against a book; he's slumped opposite it, chin resting on one wrist. The picture is slightly crooked, and he reaches out to steady the screen.

[Then he glares at it, as if it personally has done him some grave disservice.]

So, these dream... post things. What right have we got to be seeing this stuff?

[I'm looking at you, Dreamberry. Ken glares a bit more, then sighs.]

This ain't TV, right? It's... someone else's head in here. It's private and this thing's dishing it up like it was a stupid drama or something and it's - you're all, why not watch it if it's there? Like TV. And everyone does it and it starts seeming so normal and... and what the Hell's with that, why's that supposed to be okay now just because it's everywhere and--

Look, I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else, I do it too and I don't know why I ever figured it was just fine to, it's not a show and... and... Damn, I hate this place!

[And off.]

Comments

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

Because this place must have a reason for what it does and it would be foolish to completely ignore its wishes by not looking at a dream now and then.

[nie_unschuldig]

Some of us have no choice in the matter; how would you suggest we stop watching?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Oh yay it's my favorite person ever.]

Well if you think it's a good idea it's definitely completely messed up!

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

[Even more favorite than Schuldig? Aww, how sweet.]

I didn't say it was a good idea, just that it might be bad to completely ignore dreams that get shown.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[... so, how's that not filtering thing working for you, Ken?]

You don't count, you think it's fun.

[nie_unschuldig]

Not always; because really, some of your thoughts just bore me to tears.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Well, Schuldig never tortured me to death yet.]

Well, my guess is there's enough psychos out there that's not gonna be a problem. This place can get by without me joining in!

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Well if you're not even enjoying it why bother? Go read a book or something.

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

[Emphasis on yet?]

I'm perfectly sane, you know.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Emphasis on not trusting Schuldig further than I can see him and not even that, either, but actually having someone murder you is different.]

Like Hell! Sane people don't get off on the crap you do.

[nie_unschuldig]

Telepathy doesn't work that way. [There is an unspoken "idiot" tagged on the end there.]

As I said, some of us have no choice but to watch or listen.

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

And how would you know what I get off on?

[Enjoying murdering someone isn't quite the same as getting off on it.]

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

That's not the point and it don't let the rest of us off the hook!

[Doesn't let me off it.]

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty damn sure you didn't kill a bunch of people because you didn't like it!

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

There's a difference between enjoying something, getting off on it, and doing it to further a personal goal.

[nie_unschuldig]

[Feeling guilty Ken?]

Then what is your point? You said people shouldn't be watching; so, how do you suggest those of us can't help but watch not do so?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Like what? You're still killing people because you want to!

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Always. But tonight more so than usual.]

You're the telepath, if you can't figure it out that's your problem!

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

[At that, he laughs for a long moment.]

What if I told you that want had nothing to do with it? If it was something I learned to enjoy because it was that or go mad from repeatedly breaking the first rule as a doctor -- do no harm?

[Is he toying with Ken? Maybe a little.]

[nie_unschuldig]

[You should learn to enjoy it...or learn not to give a damn.]

Yes I am, but even I'm not masochistic enough to enjoy more than a cursory scan of your thoughts.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[What's so funny? Just... scowling at you, Muraki.]

I'd have a damn hard time believing it, why'd you even wanna be a doctor if you can't manage that much?!

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Only by going completely off the deep end, and even then it doesn't really work.]

Good, they're not a damn show either!

[playsdoctor.livejournal.com]

[For once, there is nothing but seriousness in his eyes and voice. But Ken probably won't trust it anyway.]

Because she can't be saved if I'm not a doctor with more power than anyone else.

[nie_unschuldig]

[Hey, some of us enjoy our insanity.]

Of course not, I'd demand my money back if it was.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Not on your life. Muraki could tell him fire burned and Ken'd want to double check.]

And that's why you're killing everyone is it?

{Sorry, not buying it.]