Video 04 → No, Really, I'm Just Curious.

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[Filtered from Weiss]

[Ken, wearing a blue apron, is standing in what appears to be the stockroom of Nectar.]

So...

[He hesitates for a moment, gazing around himself apprehensively, clearly worried he might be overheard. When he turns back to the screen, he closes his eyes briefly and takes a deep breath, as if steeling himself for something.]

What would it take to make you decide you couldn't be yourself any more?

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[alphaophiuchi]

[Draco questions your self-questioning hypothetical questions. Especially ones that make him think.]

Quite a lot. I can't think of many reasons why I wouldn't want to be myself. [then mostly to himself:] Except maybe that.

What kind of question is that, anyway?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's... just something I've been thinking about lately. I know it's kinda a weird question.

[Ken hates lying. He is also very, very bad at it, especially if the person he's lying to can see his face. If he tries, though, he can at least manage 'evasive'.]

Do you think you'd have to be really unhappy with yourself to change like that?

[alphaophiuchi]

[he's always been rather good at reading people, one brow twitching curiously at the evasiveness.]

Yes, I do. Either that, or you'd have to have done something incredibly stupid to make yourself believe you had to change.

[doctor-tatsu27.livejournal.com]

Having no other choice.

[He's seen it happen before.]

[seiryuu-warrior.livejournal.com]

Why do you ask?

[Yeah. This struck him though he's not showing it.]

[stoicism.livejournal.com]

[Only before coming to Somarium did Frank begin to embrace his true self. By no fault of his own, he'd spent years repressing all forms of emotion and attachment to others, repressing his memories. To go back to that life is something he can never allow himself to do. This question piques his interest.]

...Why would you willingly decide to be anything other than yourself?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Oh.

[Ken sighs, slumping slightly. Whatever answer he'd been hoping to get from all this, that clearly wasn't one of them.]

You don't think someone would do something like that because they thought it'd... it'd help?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Really?

[Weirdly, he'd been hoping to hear something like that.]

I guess. Anything's better than nothing, right?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

It's just been kinda bugging me the last few days. It's no big deal, really.

[alphaophiuchi]

[believe it or not, he's been thinking about this a bit too.] They probably would. I'd think that it would stem from the aforementioned stupid thing, though.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I dunno. I don't think I ever would, but... some people do, right?

I just don't get it.

[doctor-tatsu27.livejournal.com]

Possibly.

[He takes his glasses of while he looks at the little screen.]

There are simply times when there is no other option.

[seiryuu-warrior.livejournal.com]

It's not a question someone would typically ask.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Do you reckon it's any easier if you just don't have any other choice?

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

Something made me think of it is all.

Guess I kinda hoped someone else would get it.

[insorrow.livejournal.com]

[Well, it's not as if any of them are exactly short on stupid--]

I guess maybe if you'd... if you kept messing up trying to do things your way. Maybe you'd figure anything else could only be an improvement? Even if it meant changing who you were.

[stillneedsakiss.livejournal.com]

This is about Omi... isn't it?

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[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I... guess I shouldn't have said anything. Sorry, I--

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[insorrow.livejournal.com]

--I just don't understand, Aya! I... kinda hoped someone else would.

[stillneedsakiss.livejournal.com]

It's okay... I don't understand it either.

Kind of ticks you off, doesn't it?

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[insorrow.livejournal.com]

I-- well, yeah.

[This last is said a little guiltily, but he means it. He's tinkering with the Dreamberry as he speaks, and smiles slightly when he gets the filters in - just as a precaution, mind.]

It's... that's not who he is. It's just-- it's not! I know he wants somewhere to belong but come on! Those people are nuts!

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[stillneedsakiss.livejournal.com]

No, I agree completely. It makes me angry, too. I wish I could just shake him sometimes...

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[insorrow.livejournal.com]

... well, that's probably a bit less painful than what I was thinking, but I'm with you. It's...

He just shouldn't be acting like this, dammit! He never did before, Aya! He's not a Takatori!

[doctor-tatsu27.livejournal.com]

No. It isn't.

[seiryuu-warrior.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, something like that is necessary. Whether one wishes it to be or not.

[He would know.]